Tired...

Didi has been sick since before CNY eve with his fever. We gave him panadol for medication as this is the only medication for his age. But still his fever persist with temperature flucturing at 38 ~ 39 degrees without subsiding. On 2nd day of CNY, we took him to KKH and he is diagnosed with throat infection which of cos. spread from from Mummy Chia. Lucky last nite, his fever was gone but we will still monitor him. Should it come back, we will need to bring him back to KKH for further blood test.

My whole body is aching as he cling on to sick mummy and i got to carry n sayang cranky Elston. I dun mind so long he get well soon. Told MeiMei to hold on while i carry 哥哥 as he is sick.

Last weekend, i dreamt of a field of "Guan Gong" and another field of buddha statues. Somehow or rather i think they came to give me strength to hold on. Yet last nite, i dreamt PAPA Chia became a gambler and ask me for divorce as he is hooked on and cannot change.. then i bump into a coffin in a coffin van without door! Vividly i still remember is a young man photo hanging behind its coffin! Is a fine guy. Yes.. I can remember hw he look. And got these two woman crying and grumbling why such thing happen. Gosh!!! Feel sad with the dream esp. with the young man death. But what is it trying to tell me... Is Baby Gone??? :(

Sista Karen help me to draw a lot from Temple... Just one word for me, 忍. Endure with wat... It is negative or positive. I really dun Noe.. Or 忍 with all kinds of unhappines i have???

Sista Kelly pray for me and got a lot that says "健康" . ya... Baby will be alrite! Pray...

Finally the long wait is approaching, i gonna go for the test next week. Worried~! But still i keep a positive mind. This morning, I ask PAPA Chia if my tummy became smaller, if it is not growing. I have a feeling like its not there. I dunnoe why but i never tell him. Really fearful. Will all be well??? :( Positive... Positive... Haiz..

Back to work today... "Lao Peh", "Lao Bui", Ah Pui, Agnes all not around. Office as quiet as Ghost town.. Slack. So have been on MSN this morning n now blogging!!! Killing boredom....

Quietness can kill me...