sianz....

Not sleeping again... Almost every nite this time i wake up and stare at ceiling till i fall back to sleep... tiring task!

Having bad sore throat. Now coughing... Lots of phlegm, sucks! Purple says my voice is like "Zhen ZhiWei" ... can die laughing!

Ya. I still not taking any medication for now. Seen GP but ate the bloody medication for only once. Tot to see Gynae, but i scare scanning... Again the same question, what if... baby not moving??? so bear with it lor... Another 1 week plus before i see my gynae for test. So might as well wait...

Am sorry if u date me. Really no mood for any gathering at this moment. Just want to spend it quietly. Not willing to discuss the topic.. How are you getting on? When Baby due? Thanks for asking... I really appreciate just it can still dig out my wound at times...

My boss has been rather nice to me recently... Have not been rushing me for long overdue work, praying for me, talking to me, showing concern and yes... she gave me tonics last nite. Expensive... Bird nest, "Xue Ha" & American Ginseng Tea. She makes me guilt now for the "bad thoughts" i have on her previously. Maybe misjudge.. like wat i told mushroom but certain evidence seem so true. Some from colleagues, some from my old ears n eyes.. but watever it is, i have learn a lesson from my pregnancy. Anything can happen, whether u happy or not. Must love each other, cos. perhaps u will not know wat happen to him or her tomorrow. Life is so fragile.

Dun worry i am not thinking negative. I am well...

Parents & Sistas also nice... been asking me how am i? Got me tonics... really thankful for all these small tots. Mai worry for me, ok. Bro-in-law more funny, dun noe wat to say, saying sorry to hear tat, understand that is hard for any mummy to go thru these. Bro., dun worry, ok! Take good care of sis the most importance task for u.. She is a super kind soul. Tough mouth, soft hearted. An gal also sama, now wow like grown-up, think mature.. so happy. Now not the hidden gal in room. Hee!

After abt 10mths, papa chia learns how to bath for Elston. So he can help me get him clean up. Yes, no complains from him. Like tat also good, at least anything happen, the kids can still fall back on him. I sick, also can hv him to help. Hee! Can see papa chia making an effort to make my life happier.

me have stinko mouth.. si bei heaty, please pardon me! Dun noe why? Dandruff seems to be my close friend recently... change of hormones or what... can die. OK! tomorrow i gonna chg my shampoo to HEAD n SHOULDERS. Yes, please pardon me till i get it all clear, ok!

Papa Chia, Sistas, bros, mum, dad,Ah Pui, Meinu and Purple... Pai say u need to bear awhile... sianz...

SUN.. when u coming out??? My eyes like fishball. Ok, i go see if i can get to do hsework....

Good morning!!!